Больна 2PM и горда этим диагнозом...
На 2pm-online выложили англ. перевод мнения одной девушки, видевшей Джея на соревновании брейкдансеров. Очень длинное и очень трогательное мнение. И вот моя тронутое сердце борется с ленивым умом. И хочется, чтоб все прочитали и так лень переводить 
Кор: gall.dcinside.com/list.php?id=2PM&no=931843&pag...
Англ.: www.2pm-online.com/eng.php?subaction=showcommen...
Если все же возьмусь, ибо ее взгляды оч. совпадают с моими, я исхожу слюной, но все же мне не очень маыми тырое, что их так откровенн раздевают все время
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Кор: gall.dcinside.com/list.php?id=2PM&no=931843&pag...
Англ.: www.2pm-online.com/eng.php?subaction=showcommen...
Если все же возьмусь, ибо ее взгляды оч. совпадают с моими, я исхожу слюной, но все же мне не очень маыми тырое, что их так откровенн раздевают все время
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07.01.2010 в 01:39Title: Saw Jaebeom Park at a bboying tournament
SOURCE: gall.dcinside.com
My article doesn’t seem quite suitable for here as I have looked around the atmosphere, but please understand and have a read at it. It’s because here I don’t have to sign in to write things, so I’m posting. Maybe the content of my writing is more appropriate for my diary, But I think its worth a lot more than that; hence I’m bracing myself up and writing this.
I’ve never had any interest in 2PM, and to take it even further, I hated them.
Because I never have liked JYP-style from the start, not once. And not even that, I had no interest in the punk-looking person that appeared topless and naked everyday. Whenever I downloaded live music shows, I skipped over 2PM’s part saying that they are a group of punks, and complained why they were appearing on TV shows, making me feel bad.
Because I’m here in the States, and it’s not usual to see singers or celebrities every time I turn on the TV, I had to download to see them. So it was easy to not see 2PM if I wanted. Not just that, when I was back in Korea during the summer, there was a chance for me to see 2PM at an event, but I stamped out of the place saying ‘Argh why did it have to be 2PM’.
You may wonder that my actions were a little too much for just the hatred I had, but would you understand me if I hated them as much as I didn’t want to be anywhere with them? I just really hated the atmosphere that people were not enjoying them as singers, but the half-naked guys on the display, who were showing off their muscles and beasts or whatever.
Anyways, even though their song made a big hit, I had never heard it, and had never seen it, so I didn’t know if it was any good or not. And so I didn’t know how famous they were, and meanwhile, September came along.
Until then, 2PM was honestly the group that I skipped everything about
But when the unfortunate incident happened, I did feel a little sorry since I am human, too. Especially when I saw the picture of the person leaving alone.
Because we are at last human and we do grow compassion or whatever we call it, inside us.
When unfortunate things happen to one, though I’m related to the person in no ways and even if I hated the person, I still do feel sorry for the one. Especially for the people living in that world, where rumors expand thoughtlessly day by day, and they gain their popularity if they are lucky. But I sometimes think that maybe the price they have to pay for their popularity is too much.
Anyways, the intro is just up till here.
Sorry that the intro is too long. Please pass if you don’t like long writings, cuz it seems like I’ll be writing a very long one.
Last week, a friend of mine asked me to go see a b-boying tournament with him, so I went and there I saw Park Jaebeom.
But I was actually very surprised when I saw the person that was mentioned by the Korean media every single day.
It wasn’t even the area I live in… And honestly, I didn’t feel like going to the event because I’m not really interested in the field… I was wondering if I was lucky to have seen Park Jaebeom, who was everyone’s hot issue…
Anyways, my first impression of him was that he was talking to his friends; I remember his pale and cold-looking face. I also remember his adequate height, arms that are longer then those of a swimmer, and big hands even larger than his face.
After the first time I saw him, I didn’t really look at him unless he was in my sight. For some reason, it was in my intention that I didn’t want to look at him.
Since now he is just living as himself, not the singer, And he was spending a peaceful life in his town, It just felt wrong for me, who only knew him as a singer, to stare at him… and so I just couldn’t look at him even more.
The tournament started after 6, and it ended around 12am. Because it was a very long period of time, he got caught in my sight many times even though I tried not to see him. I don’t really want to judge him right or wrong from just seeing him (of whom I don’t know well) for a few hours. However, He looked like a very calm and quiet person.
Roughly retracing my memory, the bboying tournament started around the Round of 16 (32 teams). And so when their teams were not in the game, all the bboys took empty spaces and practiced their moves individually.
And Park Jaebeom, not different from anyone else, also practiced his bboying moves at the corner or danced the styles that didn’t seem like those of bboying. Then when his team was to battle, they stood up in a line and danced.
And after winning from the battle, he went to the corner again, and quietly practiced and practiced.
The tournament went on for long 6 hours, but all of them were so full of energy. It was a very long period of time, and even the audiences got very tired, but the bboys had incredible passion.
Actually, I saw a lot of people that are alike Park Jaebeom. What I mean by that is most of the people who came to see the competition or to participate in it were from minority groups. Asians were the largest, then Latinos, then African-Americans, some form the Middle-East and so on… There were less then 10 Caucasians overall. As I was entering the site, there were numbers of teenage-looking Asian boys getting off their car and gathered together. Even though they were young, they weren’t acting up or behaving badly, they were behaving like grown-ups and looked very lonely. Isn’t it normal for young boys to be loud and act playful when together? However, there was none of that there. They were all just standing still, hands in their pockets, talking to each other quietly.
By the way, FYI, I was born in Korea, I grew up in Korea, and I came to the States after I had become an adult. By my decision. And so I always thought that it was my share to feel the discomfort and sorrow of living in a foreign country, for me leaving my country Korea, where everyone looks like me.
But then all of a sudden, I realized that maybe these kids never had the chance to choose. They were in the States as they were born, and they looked a lot different from majority of the people, who live in the US.
Of course, the US is a multicultural country and a wide variety of races live in the country without much trouble. And maybe it’s impossible for me, who was born in Korea where everyone looks like me, to know or understand the 2nd generation kids of immigrants here in the States, where majority of people do not look like the way they do.
Seeing the lonely looking young Asians and Latinos, I felt choked without even noticing. It was because I just came to think that the reason why these kids were concentrating on bboying and were burning with youthful enthusiasm and passion maybe due to their isolation from the society as ‘2nd generations’ of immigrants and the loneliness they were feeling. Maybe because of that, their bboying I saw at the site felt like their sorrow from living in this society as outsiders, where they can never become the majority, was naturally expressed through their bboying moves.
Because in this competition everyone was treating each other equally regardless of their races, the boys, who looked so shy and calm outside the building, seemed to be the most confident people than anyone else in the world when they were bboying.
I actually felt uncomfortable after reading the news articles and comments about the bbyoying competition because there numerous opinions such as that the competition was the size of a small talent show and devalue its level, and judging if their bboying was good or bad. I mean, what can we even expect from them. From the eyes of the people who were always thought that being #1 is the best, they would only have acknowledged and given big applause if the competition was held at a fancy place. And the level of these kids who were rolling over the floor of a shabby space would’ve seemed so poor in their eyes.
But in my eyes, seeing them bboying at the site, The competition looked much more beautiful and valuable than any fancy and large competitions there could be. Because I felt that the competition was not simply to judge who’s technically better at bboying. It was actually to express the sorrow they were feeling from living as 2nd generations of immigrants and the grief of all minorities. It wasn’t just kids who were dancing. There was a Vietnamese man, who seemed almost 40, a Latino who looked to be in his 30s. And his family, even his baby was there together, too.
There was no proper host at the competition. The scene of 100 to 150 people naturally dancing to the DJ’s music, full of fun without any conventionality seemed much more interesting than any performance I have been to.
Actually as the competition was getting hotter, the hall was full of the smell of dancers sweating, but even the smell didn’t bother me at all. The way they were dancing surprisingly reminded me of the Korean traditional dance ‘Salpuri’, which drives out the evil spirits. And hence, I felt that their dancing was not to be judged technically good or bad.
The team that Park Jaebeom was in didn’t catch my eyes so much as ‘the best team’, in the beginning of the competition. I personally have no idea about bboying and I just felt the bboying was good when I saw highly technical moves. So at the start of the competition, I didn’t feel much for the moves of the team Park Jaebeom was in.
But then, looking at them from stage to stage, I realized that the team had planned everything thoroughly, for the final. At the Round of 16 and 8, which were like the preliminary rounds, they just danced at the level enough to pass to the next tournament. And as they were reaching the final, each member showed his brilliant skills. It was actually kind of fun to see the technical change they showed going from the beginning then till the final.
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07.01.2010 в 01:39Each one of them looked amazing, expressing their talents regardless of the results of the competition. Personally, the person who left me with the biggest impression was a fourteen or fifteen year old African American boy. He talked to Park Jaebeom a lot in between the tournament and it was good to see them cheering for each other.
The person Park Jaebeom was out of my interest until then, but from seeing him there at the competition, I found him interesting and I looked up a few videos of him for the last couple of days.
Seeing some of his appearance in TV shows, I felt bitter, regretful and pitiful because Park Jaebeom truly looked very happy when he was in Korea.
Even though he was not familiar with the Korean culture and was not able to entirely understand it because he was brought up in the States, he was indeed a Korean, too. It seemed that he was just extremely happy to be among the people who look similar to him for the first time, and be treated equally, compete with them fairly, and to show his talents. He seemed very bright and happy, different from how he would’ve been in the States, where he may have been confused with his identity and his roots.
There was no one among these bboying kids who went out to smoke cigarettes during break time. I was surprised. Just from their appearances, they look full of disobedience and discontented, but surprisingly there were not like that. Besides, they were young and they sure should have many girlfriends, but there were hardly any girls who came to see their boyfriends in the competition. There were just a few of the awesome Asian, Latino b-girls that went up to the semi-finals, and some family was all.
Theses guys bboyed with so much passion at the site where there were all men, from elementary to adults, and was not even one of these ‘showing off talent’ sessions with female celebrities that we see so commonly in Korean TV shows. These guys looked really great. Not just that, they looked very beautiful.
I am aware that seeing him just for a day, actually only for 6 hours, does not justify my saying of things about him, But honestly, I thought it was hard to find any ‘delinquency’ in Park Jaebeom that JYP often said about him.
Actually, I am not a great dancer, I have no interest in dancing, and I used to think that dancing is just all the same. There was just one thing that I have certainly felt from seeing all the bboying at the site. It was that the youthful and passionate moves of these boys at a school auditorium with no special lighting seemed so much better than the steamy moves of drunken people at a club full of smoke from cigarettes.
Long time ago, JYP once said on a TV show that he really loved dancing, and so he went to clubs to dance with his parents’ permission, even though he was still in high school. Personally, I felt that it was very unreasonable and illogical for the person, who wore a see-through shirt in front of the President, to judge someone misbehaving or not. I highly appreciate the person JYP’s ability to run a business, but the character of company’s artists are not really my type. I’m sorry, that was probably not something I should say here…. But that’s my truth.
Anyways, how surprising is it that a bboying tournament, which was held somewhere in the US, was considered a ‘big deal’, and made the headlines.
During the tournament, I came out to drink water, and randomly ran into a Korean. He asked me if I were Korean, if I knew who Park Jaebeom of 2PM was, and if I had seen him here. I didn’t quite respond to the guy because I was afraid that he would say some things if I said I knew who Park Jaebeom was. It seemed like Park Jaebeom was also the hottest issue among these people.
After seeing his bboying video written into news articles, I honestly felt quite sorry for Park Jaebeom because his life back in the States was still restricted, with no freedom. At least from my view, Park Jaebeom was definitely not a singer, but just some guy living in the neighborhood. It was quite uncomfortable to see his normal life being featured in the newspapers, and becoming the subject of people’s conversation.
However, I do not want to pity Park Jaebeom. I mean, who am I, and what good things have I done to feel pity for someone else…
Whatever I say, he will be responsible for his share, work hard, and be well…
I didn’t pay close attention, but still I did look with somewhat piercing eyes,
He looked very calm, and serious while at the tournament. And he seemed like a very strict person to himself, practicing at the corner of the hall whenever he had free time.
I’m not sure what it was exactly, but I wanted for his team to win the tournament, and indeed they did. Later I told one of the members ‘You guys did really great..’, giving thumbs up, and he truly thanked me a lot.
A Latino boy from Park Jaebeom’s team walked around in the t-shirt written “The World Noonas Live In”(2pm fansite). I don’t know why I was choked with grief. All the other bboys were just wearing their own clothes, but this team’s members were all wearing their uniforms(?), and their attitude towards the tournament also looked very distinctive.
Anyways, seeing Park Jaebeom at the tournament made me think that he was just like ‘Hwang Jin Yi’. (Popular Korean geisha in history)
I know you may think that’s really random. He attracts people’s eyes and gains their interest, even though he had left the entertainment world, and is now trying to live a quiet life. Because he was born with the talents that cannot be forgotten or be ignored. Just like ‘Hwang Jin Yi’, who left the social world, lived among neighbors, and soulfully danced…
He looked like a butterfly with a free soul.
Personally, I like a kindhearted person, who is unselfish, and accepts everything so purely without misinterpretation. Specially the thought of giving up his past five years just in four days…
I respect his mindset of carefully concerning others before taking care of himself. I really have no idea why I hated this person in the past (just because his company was JYP -.-;
Last week in the ‘Golden Fishery’, ‘Yoon Yeo Jung’ (Korean actress) said that
Artists produce even greater work when they are emotionally suffering, and experiencing pain. I just thought of Park Jaebeom out of nowhere, while I was watching the show. Then I got to see him in person. Maybe that was the reason why…-.-;;
I don’t know if this person will come back as a singer or not, but if he does, I have a feeling that he will show us something extremely great
But then I think it all depends on JYP’s ability to produce good songs that can support an artist like him. (Songs are the most important for singers. Idols are singers too.) Anyways, I think the person Park Jaebeom’s charm, and his ability to attract people is just amazing.
Normally, I am not the kind of person that care so much about other people,
But a bboying tournament, which was held somewhere in the US, made the headlines in Korea. And I felt kind of sorry for the person, who has no privacy, and cannot stay in his neighborhood comfortably. Hence, here I am writing. Changing places, if I were ever asked to live a life like Park Jaebeom’s in exchange of millions of dollars, I wouldn’t be able to do it.
The important point here is that I am just an ordinary citizen, and even if I had problems with others, it’s only with just a few. I live on because I did not get my personal life completely unveiled in front of everyone.
However, this person was unveiled from head to toe, and became the target of blame by the entire citizens. From my point of view, I think it is admirable that he is enduring well, working so hard, and living a full life. I did not know much about this person, But I feel like I know a little more about him now, a week after the bboying tournament.
Anyways, Park Jaebeom
I wish you good luck.
Be good !!!
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07.01.2010 в 01:55Так горько на душе стало...
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07.01.2010 в 02:02-
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07.01.2010 в 02:14я могу только безмерно уважать таких людей.
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